Why?
What?
When?
Where?
How?

The more I listen the more I feel a deep sense of sadness over everything I've seen and heard.
I feel sorrow... for all these resources and all this knowledge and the inevitable arrogance that seems to be tied in along with the individuals that spend their young lives thus far in a world full of books, papers, thoughts, ideas, words...words...words...

In the end all I know is that to reduce life... to reduce the pain... the desperation... the struggle that an individual undergoes when there is an experience of actual pain and suffering in a mental, physical, and emotional sense to take away from life without this experience that knowledge through a purely abstract (when I refer to this word I strictly mean being of a individual who has not for their own experience interacted with such experiences but merely feeds on the experience of other individuals, and then consider themselves well versed in such things, and almost an expert, when they themselves have not felt, smelt, or even touched any of the things they attempt to gain knowledge and say they have understand through words of grandeur) manner can give this individual the ability to believe that they have any concept of the topic is beyond me and frankly I find this individuals patronizing, demeaning, insecure (I'll expound on this later) and well completely useless as a reference to understanding such experience or topics.

How can someone through all their knowledge of how evil should be explain through such great humanities as philosophy, psychology, theology etc. sit and explain to me in their most prestige way what evil is? how I am feeling? how this manner is accurate? Or how this thought is accurate or inaccurate? This in the end I have heard this amount of conversation from individuals who have never experienced anything that could be closely related to evil. These individuals have never felt... then how in the hell through a book and through feeding like vultures off of the experience and knowledge of others can they so pompesly presume to even attempt to make such bold thoughts and theories about things that they have know REAL knowledge on?

Explain this to me... I'd love to hear it.

The thing that I go further with that frustrates me so is that people actual respect this individuals and desire to become them???

This baffles me beyond anything. This person has never tasted the cake but they have read so many books about it and when they speak of this cake of they say it with such intellect and such a air about them that gives a sense that they are so superior and just far beyond our way of thinking.

I think that in the end my conclusion is that they are full of bullshit just like all of us. And just like all of us, they are full of more questons then ever before, to some degree I think that is why these individuals will never leave that realm. To leave that realm would render them unsuperior. To make them human again and take away this beautiful delussion that they have built for themselves that they really know what life is and they have reached "success".

But in the end it's just beautiful words, with alot of knowledge about something they have never taste for themselves.